YOUR Way…Not Mine

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Contributed by Krista Rhodenhizer, wife of our Lead Pastor, Chris Rhodenhizer.

New York City.  Rush Hour.  Times Square.  How can you be in literally the craziest, most visible place in the country and be lost?  I will tell you how……. STUPID G.P.S.!  Yes, I said “stupid.”  Don’t tell my kids.

My close friends and family all know that I have serious issues with G.P.S.  “What if the roads have changed?”, I ask…. “What if it freaks out?” …. “What if we can’t get satellite signal?” BINGO!  It was in this moment, surrounded by a bunch of angry jaywalkers, flashing lights and cab drivers with a death wish, that I had absolutely NO idea which way to turn, because I was depending on a lady with an irritatingly calm voice who kept informing me that she was “recalculating……..recalculating….”  I was freaking out.  I am still apologizing to this day to my sweet friend who was with me.  That poor girl bore the brunt of my frustration that day.

Being a control freak, I like to have my way planned, and I like to decide which way I will go.  I want to look at a map and know “You Are Here,” so I can plan any alternate route or at least know which direction I am headed.  I do not like being out of control, and I HATE having to wait, let alone patiently wait.  Are you noticing all of the “I”s involved in my life?

I have so many aspirations of what I want to do “when I grow up.”  I always wanted to be a mommy.  God blessed me above what we could have imagined, and I have four amazing children.  So, now that my babies are off to school, I have, somewhat impatiently, told God that it’s time for me to make good on some of my “plans.”  Yeah, you can see how this is going to go…… “Wait.”  WHAT?  I am not sure I understand.  I have these plans because they are right for my family.  These plans are right for my ministry.  They are so I can serve YOU, Father!  This is not one of those stories where I tell you the end, and I was waiting for something so amazing and surprising that you will walk away inspired.  I am still frustrated.  I am still chomping at the bit.  I KNOW what I want.  Yet, I wait.

I am working through “Experiencing God” with the I-Chicks Bible Study on Wednesday mornings.  Last week, this verse that I have read literally thousands of times, knocked me on my tail.

“I am the Vine, you are the branches.  Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.”  John 15:5

Conviction has been wearing away at me.  God promises in John 14:26 that the Holy Spirit will bring to our remembrance all that Jesus has said.  He was (and still is) doing just that.  I have no amazing new advice to give on what “God’s plan” is for my life or yours, but I DO know and believe His promises.  IF I remain in the Vine, daily surrendering, reading and meditating on His Word and seeking Him in prayer, He promises to remain in me and to produce fruit.  Apart from Him – apart from ABIDING in Him – I can do nothing.  Enough said.

My control issues, my need to plan my steps, my need to plan my DESTINATION, leads me nowhere.  Nowhere.  If I am daily plugged in to Him, He will daily center me in His will and produce fruit.  He will place me, in His timing, where He desires for me to be.  And I believe that at that time, I will already be just one step away from that destination, without even realizing where I am.  He doesn’t need to show me the map.  He IS the map.

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